This painting is the most figurative of my recent works. It is fuelled by my being more open and explicit about my past and its legacy. I still wish to leave the viewer with ‘room’ for alternate interpretations.
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings?
Strategies I use to cope with negative feelings…
Ooh, I use different strategies – dependant on what and how severe my negative feelings are.
The majority of the time I get my paint brushes out and express my feelings on the canvas. I also write in my journal, splurge all my thoughts and negative feelings on the page.
I occasionally chat with my friends…
More recently, I have expressed my feelings through tears, floods of persistent tears – what a release!!!💧
In the warmer months I will go into my garden and potter around. At other times I go on a cleaning spree in my home, scrubbing and polishing already clean surfaces.
I do, at times sit quietly and have a little chat with myself. Put things into perspective…it’s not all that bad – surely?
After leaving school at 15yrs old with no real education or qualifications, I felt academically inept. I didn’t care at the time, all I wanted to do (and good at) was be an athlete; a sprinter.
On leaving school, being homeless for several months, my aspirations to be an athlete fell by the wayside. as did most things.
After finding my feet (no pun intended) at 19 yrs of age, I went to night school and studied Art and Psychology. I struggled, I had a lot to learn.
I gained a place in University to study Fine Art & Critical & Contextual Studies. I couldn’t believe it. I was terrified. I convinced myself they had made a mistake, they would soon find out, realise I shouldn’t be there.
On arrival, I felt so out of place. I felt like a fraud. I didn’t belong in academia, sit in lectures and take notes, write essays…F**K!
I kept a low profile, went to lectures, took copious notes, recorded every lecture, which I replayed numerous times; in case I missed anything.
I felt sure I wouldn’t last a month, if that. The months went by, and I was still there. After three years, I graduated with my degree and went straight into teaching Art & Art History.
I didn’t get to run in the Olympics, but I eventually got my education.
I really felt out of place in Uni, but so I’m so glad I persevered. 🤗🙏