Author: Sara Allwright

Fine Artist

“Life without a computer” 😱

Your life without a computer: what does it look like?

Life without a computer 🤔

Walking around a grocery store; touch, smell, prod, poke the produce before selecting the goods. Rather than selecting produce with a few taps on the keyboard and delivered to your doorstep 🚛.

Physically seeing, consulting with GP’s and medical professionals. Not the online questionnaires and video appointments.

Instead of ‘google’. The library is full of beautiful books, the aroma of the well read pages 📚📖.

Speaking, communicating face to face with people. The sound and tone of their voice, body language, facial expressions 🤪. Rather than text, email..blah blah blah.

However, I wouldn’t be communicating with all you lovely people without my computer 👩‍💻😁✨

“Skill”

What skill would you like to learn?

What skill would I like to learn 🤔

There are many skills I would like to learn. But, the main one for me right now is; How to create healthy boundaries. 😁

“In Search of Sara”

What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

I feel somewhat apprehensive about revealing/writing this. But, one of the things I need to pay more attention to is:

To open up, verbalise, write about; finding Sara, the real me, not the suppressed me.

Three years ago I was diagnosed with CPTSD.

Prior to my diagnosis, I was evasive, silenced, unheard, and shut myself off from the world. I spent the majority of my childhood in a dissociative state. I constantly strived to be invisible. I could not express myself verbally or through the written word. I found safety in expressing my hidden world, my feelings, my emotions through Art.

I have recently completed a long and arduous course of EMDR Therapy. Although extremely difficult, this therapy has alleviated a lot of my trauma triggers. I have now reprocessed some of my most extreme distressing life experiences; especially childhood traumas.

I no longer want to be invisible!

This post is one of my first steps to owning my past traumas and becoming visible.

I am in the process of writing my memoir; ‘In search of Sara’. Not an easy task 🤪, a work in progress 😁😁.

Thank you for reading. 🙏🌻

‘Fullfilled’

In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled?

When I’m teaching… I work hard to promote/reinforce my students/learners to express themselves with confidence. When they flourish I feel fulfilled.

I work hard tending to my garden. I feel fulfilled as my blooms/flowers blossom and grow.

I work hard at perfecting my cookery skills. Very fulfilling when it goes to plan 😋, which doesn’t happen all the time 🤣🤣